| how i make decisions: a) put it off as long as possible, throwing the decision up in the air to dangle on my personal clothesline of unfinished business, learning to ignore all manner of hovering socks and knickers, and scowling at anyone who makes reference to my unsorted laundry. b) the crisis stage. brought on suddenly, triggered by a specific event. full blown panic and crying and what the hell is wrong with me. this is when it's nice to have the best sort of friends, the ones that console you while effectively hiding their amusement at your exaggerated bellows. c) frantic sorting, asking smart people lots of questions. d) (also suddenly) a substantial, weighty, beautiful lump appears in my gut--not unlike a warm, wholesome, reassuring glob of oatmeal. the decision is made, perhaps much too impulsively, perhaps on important-weighty-substancial evidence and perhaps on a trifle, perhaps without me even knowing for certain how it was made, but it is made, and it is right. |
